When the truth came out.

*Blows dust off!* Erhem. Sorry for not updating this blog and doing a good job in keeping this blog dead! I hope that you guys still continue to come regularly to check for updates – but I’ve been really busy nowadays with my various commitments in school that are starting to overload, as usual.

Being a student in a graduating class just means two things: 1) Extended school hours, and 2) More deadlines to meet! On top of that, you have to juggle with your commitments and school work – thus having no time at all to pamper yourself. The only luxurious thing I got to do so far this month was to sleep. I know, how pathetic is that right?! That’s just the harsh facts of reality and eye bags just turns into a common feature on your face.

Even now, as I am typing (and thinking) about this entry – I feel damn lethargic. Like seriously, I could faint and die or something – I just don’t have the strength to even hype myself up. The only thing I could do now that would be good for me is SLEEP. Plenty of those! I’ve been waking up at 6am for the past 8 days, the latest was at 8am – which was today. I feel like I am going through a period of hell.

Save me! Tomorrow, morning call at 7am! Gotta’ head to church tomorrow. I need sleep, else I’ll sleep during sermon. Alright, till here! I PROMISE, that I will try to update more regularly, if I have the time. (: Okay, where’s my pillow? Shall think about what I will wear tomorrow. (: With love.

Wake my dreams.

Alice In The Wonderland. The Blind Side. Up In The Air: Any takers? Packed holidays and weekend. I just look forward to waking up each day without having to worry about school, for a week. But I’ll still be in school, physcially – how sad.

I can’t wait for camp. Tomorrow night all the way till Sunday afternoon. Finally – 3 days of non-stop excitement. Love everyone, and Common Test kinda sucked because of the timetable. 4 papers in a row could kill easily, like snap.

Alright, random update. With Love.

Two-faced.

“These innocence were perfect.”

Evaluate your emotions and downfall for the past month. [6 marks]

Today This month was a fairytale because:

Friends. Holidays. School. Percy Jackson. Valentines Day. Red Packets. Chinese New Year. Homeworks and Assignments. Pineapple Tarts. Outings. BB/GB. Common Test. Depression. God.

Rough month with some moments to take away I would say. I am just trying to adapt into my daily 7am to 4pm routine in school – it’s very demanding on me. Weekends are my motivations and friends are my inspirations. Thinking about it, it’s time for me to wake up and study harder! Common Test in 3 weeks time. Can’t afford to mess this one up, or else I’ll be in dead meat.

How has your month been? Great? I hope not. =P Kidding. I am just feeling so shagged nowadays that I don’t have much time to pamper myself. Teachers think that they have the toughest job in the world, why can’t they think about us for a moment? No point whining. I wonder why parents pay the school for us to get scolded at. I wonder.

Till here, too tired to continue. With love people, till then.

In the jungle with the beast.

With so many things running wildly in my mind right now, I don’t know what to think about. With so many people giving me mixed response, I don’t know what people think about me now. With so many things happening in my life, I couldn’t help but think that hate revolves around my life all over again.

I have always wanted to pen down my thoughts, emotionally. Sometimes when people think that they get me – actually they don’t, they don’t fully get me because only a handful of them do. Well, I can obviously tell that many people look at me in different ways. Like come’on! I know I behave and act weirdly from how you guys picture a guy/man/boy to be like, but why can’t I be someone unique? I didn’t grow up being thought how to be a man/guy or whatever, I was being thought how to be a PERSON – someone with a heart to love and care and have the brains to think about issues and matters.

I don’t really care much about what people have to say about me, because they have got to accept me for who I am someday- because I am me. This is who I am, this is what makes me unique. If people asked me to change, I think it would all be fake – fake personalities, wanna-be kinda thing. I am happy with who I am right now, and I am happy with the people I mix around with.

I just hope that all the hate will go away someday, soon. I shall pretty much get to bed now, I want to go to school tomorrow. BB Day, have not polished. So it concludes that I have to be up early to get my polishing done. Bye peeps, I miss people already. (:

The way it goes.

I just realised that I am into the first week of 2010. I should really stop saying, ‘OMG! I can’t believe it’s 2010!’. To summarize the first week, I would say that it has been a really tiring one. I have been neglecting sleep to do work and stuff, thus causing me to struggle during lessons. Even now, while I am typing this – my eyes are just slowly shutting. For the past few days, I was having lessons from 8am to 4pm and rehearsals after that all the way till around 6+pm.

Sometimes, I just wish that people would appreciate others more. Okay, I don’t know why I am typing this but it’s seriously random. I love Elmo, because it’s always there to listen to me when I am down. I feel loved when I am around it! Yes, I am still a kid at heart. I’ll write till here, feeling really tired! With love people. (:

First days.

First day of school, and I am in a lousy mood. It’s 12:43am, what the hell am I still doing here? I hate school, but I am trying to adapt to it. I just wish everyone wasn’t so against me being myself – because I love me, and I am me. Dead tired, still not done with work – but I’ll just go to bed soon. Consequence, a heavier bag ’cause I’ll be bringing my lappy to school.

Hope it would be better tomorrow – With love.

Life like a circus.

It still haven’t struck me yet that 2009 has ended. I spent my last few minutes of 2009 with almost a thousand others, and we were all stuck in a prayer. I was trying so hard to concentrate but the people next to the ballroom were blasting disco music and counting down at the same time. So you can imagine, when the doors were wide open – you can hear them shouting at the top of their lungs, “5. 4. 3. 2. 1. HAPPY NEW YEAR!”. Dang, I didn’t have a proper countdown this year, but I am blessed to have the people around me. We all went around the ballroom exchanging hugs and greetings. It is my first year spending such moments with my friends, and it was a mind-blowing experience.

Dinner was great, I just wish that I wasn’t so dead and would have roamed around more to interact with others. I was feeling pretty tired even before they served the main course. But I was glad to be able to chat and cam-whore with some peeps. It was overall a crazy night for us to enjoy ourselves before returning to school on Monday. Oh, don’t even remind me – School, such a dread. Reached home at 2am in the morning and everyone was already sleeping soundly.

I actually wanted to blog about something more personal, but I guess I’ll do it on another day. Feeling very tired, I still have to head to school early tomorrow morning. I miss my peeps, I miss hanging out and crapping with people. I miss camps. I miss staying up late at night. I miss holidays. I hate school. ):

I love everyone, do love me back – With Love.

this ain’t no truth or dare.

I wasn’t really in the festive mood this year – I don’t understand why, maybe it’s cause I am no longer a kid! Nah, stupid reasonings. I guess I was overloading myself with activities even during the holidays and I was so drained out that I didn’t have the mood for Christmas. This year is so different – good and bad difference, but time passes by so quickly that it’s hard sometimes to capture all those good moments.

I was at ARPC on the eve of Christmas Eve for a musical, alongside with all the BB/GB companies that the church sponsors. It was one hell of a good night! Rarely do I get to spent my time outside past twelve midnight. Oh well, but the musical was great! It was sad at parts but it ended of with a happy ending, keeping in mind the true meaning of Christmas. (: Oh yes! Stage Games! The ultimate entertainment of the night. We had the ‘Wonder Boys’ up on stage! It was so ‘cute’ to see them on stage grooving and mimicking to ‘Nobody’, definitely one of the highlights that evening.

We had gift exchange and in the meantime, we were all snapping away with our cameras. But the bus came early so we had to rush down – so we literally ran, stop and took picture, and ran again. It was so funny! After we reached Woodlands, the whole bunch of us went for supper and occupied 5 tables. We surprised Daphne! Happy Birthday Daphne! May you have a great year ahead. (: We stayed there till about 12midnight and I cabbed home. Oh yeah, we also had some bill issues with the people there. They are so uncoordinated with their billings and orders. Please go get a proper system and stop pissing people off. Tyvm. (:

I’ve been home for the past couple of days, revamping my room. Yes, I painted my walls pale yellow and draw some crap on it. My room looks so much brighter and neater now! No more kiddy furnitures, even though I miss them cause they’ve been with me since I moved in to this flat – which was like 10 years ago!  Well, there’s a point of time in life where you have to move on. New Year is coming, I don’t wanna go back to school yet – I just don’t think I am ready to face everything.

I wanna have fun for the next couple of days. Dance Trainings (OMG. Seriously!), Drill Trainings and NYE’s Dinner, and maybe bowling before that. (: I just hope that the next couple of days would be filled with fun and enjoyment! I want to end off this year with a bang after so much drama and emotions spilled out. I don’t really have a New Year’s resolution yet, and I don’t really want to think about it first.

It’s Singapore Idol Grand Finale tomorrow guys! Do remember to watch and voteeee! I feel so tired now even though I woke up for less than 4 hours. Sister is going to get me my dinner! Till here people – I promise I’ll blog more often in the coming year. With love.

“Living under your spotlight.”

When they shout ugly, everyone stop and stare.

BASIC Camp. Actually, honestly speaking – I don’t really know how to start of this entry, so I’ll just go with the flow. I cabbed to church with the rest and there was a freakin’ jam in the highway. Well, can’t blame us – because it was 9am in the morning, peak period. Registered and we all still had time to play games before boarding the bus to NACLI.

Camp was overall fun, and interesting. But I thought there was too much talks going on, instead of games or free time for us to interact and bond. I was unable to focus during some of the talks as I was just on the verge of slamming my face onto the person in front, I was terribly tired. But I really enjoyed the bible study, the games and all the interaction. Meeting new people and stuff, it was really fun to know more.

I think the last night of camp was really like the highlight of the entire 4 days. We had Finale Night, where each team had to come out with a performance. Some teams performance were really great and comical, keeping in mind that we only had about 3 hours to prepare. Sir Albert and Ma’am Pris brought our Bible Study group out for supper at this prata place. It was really a great time of sharing and bonding as well, and it’s going to be my Bible Study group next year too!

Returned back to NACLI, the ‘high-ness’ just began. We all sat down in a circle and started to play a series of games. Ugly Doll, Heart Attack, Truth or Dare and the Sadist Game. There was definitely humiliating moments and also screaming at its’ highest pitch. A night filled with endless memories to take away with, we ended off the night with a short heart-to-heart conversation – but I went to bed earlier because I couldn’t hold my tiredness anymore. Thank you Marlon for sending me to my room, was too scared to climb up to 3rd level myself. Too scary, and our rooms are all facing trees. I was in the room myself, because two of my roomies were already sleeping, so they were ‘not there’ – and I went to sleep at around 4am.

Next day, had breakfast before we all got bus-ed back to church. Took pictures and then went up to one of the rooms to chill. Service, almost fell asleep and was struggling to keep myself awake during sermon. Went out to take-away lunch after that, followed by Cheesecake workshop! I really don’t know how we all got the energy to even attend! I think the end product of the cheesecake is really good, I just tried it.  Cabbed back to Woodlands after that and met up with family at Jacks Place for dinner. Was already on the verge of dying and they stilled ask me out for dinner.

Chilled today and there is Sharity Gift Box tomorrow! Haha, I think I am going to bump into Dwight at BBHQ. You can tell that I am really lazy to update, so ya. I shall end here. Feeling very hungry now, and Dad is going downstairs to get me food! Till here, toodles.